First of all, Merry Christmas everyone!

The year 2011 is coming to an end. Wow. Time really does fly fast. I don’t know how to put into words how this year was for me, actually. Many bizarre things happened in just one snap. But of course, I’m very thankful to Him that He still made this year a fruitful one for me. Life lessons that I will never get tired of learning, more epic moments with my very loving best friends, and family moments too. It’s a year where laughter was spread, tears were shed, and a big bucket of love was shared.

I think this year helped me to become more mature and have broader way of thinking and analyzing situations. Also, I’m the type of person who considers to keep what he/she thinks to him/herself. So many people, even those who are close to me, doesn’t really know what going on my mind. But now, I’m trying to be an open book. I realized that it’s not good to keep to yourself the things you have in mind, especially worries and problems. 

Another thing, it seems like it was just yesterday when I was so scared because I was an incoming third year high school student. Now, just one quarter to go and I’m already a Senior. A SENIOR. A SENIOR. It’s taking time for me to absorb all these things. Why can’t I just stop time and be a high school student forever? I mean yes, I am indeed excited about being a college student. All those freedom and finally a different environment (of course CSR will forever have a special place in my heart.) but high school … there’s something about it that I can’t let go of. My batch mates. My dear, dear batch mates whom I have been with for the past 10 years. The teachers who taught me so well and molded me into a great and an upright Rosena. Waaaa. This makes me so emotional even though I still have a year to spend with them in school. I guess I have no choice but to make the most out of it and create more worth-remembering memories with them.

COLLEGE. What a word. My batch mates and I really think that we don’t fit that word. We’re too young, ok. We look too young. Or maybe that’s just us. Haha. But yeah, it’s just around the corner and I can feel it calling me. Few days ago, I was talking to a good friend/ate of mine from Ateneo and we were talking about the courses I am considering in the university. I suddenly realized that I’m still a bit of undecided with what I want to take and what to do with my life in the future. Currently, I’m terribly torn between MIS, ComTech and Management. Plus, I do not have second-option school. I’m like, sticking to Ateneo forever. I hope this is a good decision though. I don’t like UP (I want to pass it badly though. It’s all about the pride. Hehe.), I don’t like UST either and it would be ironic if I’ll go to DLSU. I’m known for being the Ateneo fan in my batch and it would break my heart if green blood will run through my veins and not blue. Haha. All these things are really stressing me out. I don’t want to be end up being undecided. The reason why I like ComTech is that it has arts and creativity is particularly needed for it which is something that I’m good at. It has a mixture of technology as well which I also love. Computers are my buddies, ok. Management is also present which I want so badly since I’m a really business-minded person.  As for the things I want to do with my life, like I said, they are too confusing.

1. I would love to work in a magazine
2. I want to take short courses in SoFA and be a stylist
3. At the same time, I want to open two types of business: my own clothing line and a good franchise of a food brand/store.
4. And I have this thing when it comes to working in a real office with the whole computer works and paper works.
5. Most of all, be a BOSS. Any type of boss. I want to have this high position in a company. (complete with the big, rotating, leather chair. LOL.)

Ang labo ng mga pangarap ko, diba? /cries.

ANYWAYS. My mind’s so full of different thoughts which makes me go frantic like I always am.

• From the schoolworks
• the upcoming cheerdance
• JS Prom
• me thinking about that I have a one school year left to spend in CSR
• college reviews
• what courses to take
• passing The Ateneo (what boggles my mind lately)
• stupid crush that I know will never get to know me either
• family-relatives problems
• maintaining my grades
• finishing third year with honors
• effin’ Geometry
• Money problems (HAHA. But seriously.)
• and so much more.

I’m so sorry if this post is too random. I just want to write everything that comes into my mind.